Hen House Talk With All Our Friends - Part 9
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I can relate to the "panic" stuff...since i'm not on my medication right now, I struggle alot to stay out of panic mode. Did I say the Dr. Is trying to get me on some free meds? Hope that works cause going on and off depending on finances seems to me to make the off times worse....
Jay (hug) you know we will all be thinking of you non-stop and doing the codie thing when you aren't aruond....but hey! I still think it's absolutely wonderful!!!!
I've gotta do 2 more resumes today and one more assignment...i let the anxiety drive me to bed yesterday too much ....so...more anxiety today...it's a neverending cycle. However I will have medication after my son wakes up and we go pick it up. My regular dr. gave me a script for enough pills to get me through till I see the psych again this week.
It's 5 am and my head is already wirling with unresolved stuff...but..I'll just go do the 2 job apps and I think then figure out how to pay bills on line cause my computer i do it on is down and this one isn't set up....
ok...gotta move and do something now....sitting too long at the computer actually gets me anxious...trying to do some computer then some physical to get past all this
Jay (hug) you know we will all be thinking of you non-stop and doing the codie thing when you aren't aruond....but hey! I still think it's absolutely wonderful!!!!
I've gotta do 2 more resumes today and one more assignment...i let the anxiety drive me to bed yesterday too much ....so...more anxiety today...it's a neverending cycle. However I will have medication after my son wakes up and we go pick it up. My regular dr. gave me a script for enough pills to get me through till I see the psych again this week.
It's 5 am and my head is already wirling with unresolved stuff...but..I'll just go do the 2 job apps and I think then figure out how to pay bills on line cause my computer i do it on is down and this one isn't set up....
ok...gotta move and do something now....sitting too long at the computer actually gets me anxious...trying to do some computer then some physical to get past all this
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OMG!! Timebuster--that was hilarious! I used to know a cat who would only drink out of the faucet, but he didn't stick his whole head in it! Too funny.... Thanks for the laugh...:rotfxko
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hi hen housers - umm my doc put me on mirtazapine - it took 5 tries on diff anti - d's before this - i know no medical advice but i had an awful time and want as few to go through that on top of getting out of their addiction...
umm quietly i'm clean.... hi Jay impurrfect and everyone...
love all you guys
Karma
umm quietly i'm clean.... hi Jay impurrfect and everyone...
love all you guys
Karma
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((Timebuster)) - I get a daily thing from a vet with stuff about cats and he usually has come cute videos...I'd seen this one, and there's NO WAY any of my cats would voluntarily put their head under water, though Patches does prefer drinking from the running water in their little water fountain.
Church was great, again. The service is different than when I was growing up, and I'm still not used to it, but I guess I will. I got hugs from the twins..they're still getting to know me, but are generous with hugs.
Got to work on my med/term word list first, then start back on the computer stuff, so I'll be in and out here.
((Lenina)) is home but trying to get caught up on rest.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Church was great, again. The service is different than when I was growing up, and I'm still not used to it, but I guess I will. I got hugs from the twins..they're still getting to know me, but are generous with hugs.
Got to work on my med/term word list first, then start back on the computer stuff, so I'll be in and out here.
((Lenina)) is home but trying to get caught up on rest.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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jay good luck - we all love you...big hugs to u and kirby - sorry for the triple posting but i'm on a phone only at the mo - no tv broadband or landline.. and cant correct earlier ones or add more...love u all as already mentioned
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well just had a nice time with the dogs outside....feel a bit more relaxed
Nia and Gunner were explaining to me that they are very self sufficient...if we took down the fences and some other things...they could hunt and eat their own food, find warm places to sleep...but we confine them and they can't open up the bags to feed themselves (snirkle)...so thats the only reason they need us lol
I'm opting not to call my brother who just got out of a dual diagnosis treatment. He isn't much on sharing and I think it just increases his stress when we call and he has to make small talk (he doesn't do deep talk).
I'm struggling alot with anxiety. The depression to me, right now, seems secondary....first i get anxious about everthing going on and all i need to do to do the "next indicated thing" ... then I tip over the edge into depression...sorta give up mode.
But! Better today Letting go of trying to control EVERY possibility helps. But it's really a bit hard applying for jobs that I'm pretty sure..well..I honestly don't think I will be able to do a good job right now...I freak out pretty easy...but that could change once the meds kick in in about 2-4 weeks (i get back on them tomarrow latest).
I'm sorta looking forward to turkey lurky day although we actually are having duck...mom is coming chris is exited about cooking all the food...I think I'll be able to get enough done to let go for a few days and enjoy the cooking and comaradary (big grin)
Nia and Gunner were explaining to me that they are very self sufficient...if we took down the fences and some other things...they could hunt and eat their own food, find warm places to sleep...but we confine them and they can't open up the bags to feed themselves (snirkle)...so thats the only reason they need us lol
I'm opting not to call my brother who just got out of a dual diagnosis treatment. He isn't much on sharing and I think it just increases his stress when we call and he has to make small talk (he doesn't do deep talk).
I'm struggling alot with anxiety. The depression to me, right now, seems secondary....first i get anxious about everthing going on and all i need to do to do the "next indicated thing" ... then I tip over the edge into depression...sorta give up mode.
But! Better today
Letting go of trying to control EVERY possibility helps. But it's really a bit hard applying for jobs that I'm pretty sure..well..I honestly don't think I will be able to do a good job right now...I freak out pretty easy...but that could change once the meds kick in in about 2-4 weeks (i get back on them tomarrow latest). I'm sorta looking forward to turkey lurky day
although we actually are having duck...mom is coming chris is exited about cooking all the food...I think I'll be able to get enough done to let go for a few days and enjoy the cooking and comaradary (big grin)
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((Ananda)) - good thing you don't have my Elvis there - HE could get into the dog food bags! Dad put a bag of DOG food on top of the fridge....Elvis found it and ripped it open...dog food everywhere. Don't think he actually ATE any of it, and the dog doesn't "do" dog food, so the cat food is in a cabinet above the stove, that he can't get to.
Sorry about the anxiety. I've yet to get to my schoolwork, but am getting there. I still don't know what we're doing Thanksgiving Day, but I'm sure we will have food
((Karma)) - you're better than me, I can GET SR on my blackberry, but get frustrated that it takes too long to get to where I want to go and just wait 'til I get home on the laptop
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Sorry about the anxiety. I've yet to get to my schoolwork, but am getting there. I still don't know what we're doing Thanksgiving Day, but I'm sure we will have food
((Karma)) - you're better than me, I can GET SR on my blackberry, but get frustrated that it takes too long to get to where I want to go and just wait 'til I get home on the laptop
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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So, I just found out what dad wants us to do on Thanksgiving, and I'm not going. Don't want to go where and with who he wants to. Stepmom doesn't want to go, either, but she will if he does.
Whatever, I'll be fine. It may be the only day I have off for a while, so I can chill. We DO have a turkey, and it will get cooked eventually.
Back to schoolwork
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Whatever, I'll be fine. It may be the only day I have off for a while, so I can chill. We DO have a turkey, and it will get cooked eventually.
Back to schoolwork
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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amy, sorry to hear that the Thanksgiving plans are shot. It can still be a great day. Maybe just rest up, listen to some good music. You're welcome to pop up here, it's going to be quiet one, just me, my mom, my daughter, and hubby.
I was listening to Johnny Cash's cover of NIN's song, Hurt, and wow that is so powerful. It's about addiction and past regrets. Killer video.
I'm not normally a Johnny Cash fan but I do like some of his songs. When I was in rehab I was in such denial and anger the first week that I sang Amy Winehouse's Rehab over and over to myself. Well I sang it alot in Sober living because of the rules but what a great recovery tool for me. No more rehab. It's good when you need it but too much when you're ready to start living or when you're older than everybody else in there and aren't interested in breaking a rule anyway but because somebody figured a way to break a rule, the rules get insane. Like punishing the good kids. And there were many good people in rehab, people that were at their last rope, people that made a mistake, people that were trying to hang onto a job, wife or some other great reason.
Anyway Anada, if you have figured out how to keep panic at bay please tell me. I've gone to bed the last week feeling anxious. It comes in cycles, I'm strong, nothing can phase me and then the next day everything breaks me. I am not invincible.
The hot flashes are coming on heavy, this is way past normal hot flash. I think it's still part of coming off this drug. And I'm a great deal like you, I have to get active, do stuff to keep things from overwhelming me.
Karma, it's good you're here, it's a good place to be. Glad to have you.
Hope Jay is doing good today, and hope Lenina rests up. Hugs to 40T for being such a sweetie and my dear dee....... love to all. And CQ!
I was listening to Johnny Cash's cover of NIN's song, Hurt, and wow that is so powerful. It's about addiction and past regrets. Killer video.
I'm not normally a Johnny Cash fan but I do like some of his songs. When I was in rehab I was in such denial and anger the first week that I sang Amy Winehouse's Rehab over and over to myself. Well I sang it alot in Sober living because of the rules but what a great recovery tool for me. No more rehab. It's good when you need it but too much when you're ready to start living or when you're older than everybody else in there and aren't interested in breaking a rule anyway but because somebody figured a way to break a rule, the rules get insane. Like punishing the good kids. And there were many good people in rehab, people that were at their last rope, people that made a mistake, people that were trying to hang onto a job, wife or some other great reason.
Anyway Anada, if you have figured out how to keep panic at bay please tell me. I've gone to bed the last week feeling anxious. It comes in cycles, I'm strong, nothing can phase me and then the next day everything breaks me. I am not invincible.
The hot flashes are coming on heavy, this is way past normal hot flash. I think it's still part of coming off this drug. And I'm a great deal like you, I have to get active, do stuff to keep things from overwhelming me.
Karma, it's good you're here, it's a good place to be. Glad to have you.
Hope Jay is doing good today, and hope Lenina rests up. Hugs to 40T for being such a sweetie and my dear dee....... love to all. And CQ!
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((Med)) thanks for the invite, but I just looked at how many stores I need to do and I may not get out of BED Thursday...sigh. I can carry them over into December, but that just makes more to do in Dec. so I'm going to do as many as possible. I'd gotten used to being able to take my time, but I have a feeling we'll be busy at work, so I may stay at 4 days/week until after the first of the year.
Who knows...they have their own agenda's at McD's, and everyone is looking for another job.
I'm done with my words for the med/term class, about to start on power-point (for some reason, the censor used to blank out the way it's REALLY spelled...don't know if it still does).
Got the Falcon's game on, and am sorta watching it.
((Dee)) - you could fly to Atlanta, and we could drive up to ((Med's)) for some turkey That 23-hour flight, one way, means you need to leave really soon, though!
I'm not anxious, just b****y. No cigarettes, don't really CRAVE them, per se, but I feel like one of the cats when they hiss and stretch out their claws, so I'm staying in my room.
Oh yeah, still some cheesecake left...must go get some!
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Who knows...they have their own agenda's at McD's, and everyone is looking for another job.
I'm done with my words for the med/term class, about to start on power-point (for some reason, the censor used to blank out the way it's REALLY spelled...don't know if it still does).
Got the Falcon's game on, and am sorta watching it.
((Dee)) - you could fly to Atlanta, and we could drive up to ((Med's)) for some turkey
That 23-hour flight, one way, means you need to leave really soon, though!I'm not anxious, just b****y. No cigarettes, don't really CRAVE them, per se, but I feel like one of the cats when they hiss and stretch out their claws, so I'm staying in my room.
Oh yeah, still some cheesecake left...must go get some!
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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(((HenHousers!!)))
It's so good to see all of you and nice to see some new residents as well! Welcome to you all!
(((Jay))) I know I'm late but please know you're in my thoughts. When I was in therapy, there was a point I thought it was making me worse and wanted to quit. Actually, getting all the feelings and thoughts out was part of the healing process. So, as hard as it was at the time, the better it was for me and my mental health later. I think going inpatient is going to be good for you. I'm sending my best thoughts to you and Kirby as always.
(((med))) I don't recall if I mentioned this to you before but you might want to ask your doctor about a beta blocker for the panic. I take atenolol and it makes such a huge difference for me. I feel calm, I rarely get a full-blown panic attack since I've been on it. I take a very small dose daily. I have no other side effects from it, no drowsiness, no muddled thinking or anything. So, do ask your doctor to look into it for you.
(((Amy))) Thanks for passing on my message. I'm finally awake and feeling more rested. I'm so glad to be home! However, our car died and Hubs had to get a new battery for it. I am worried there's more trouble ahead with the car.
We are going to a restaurant for Turkey Lurky day. The deal is, they pack up some left overs so you can go home with stuff for sandwiches and midnight snacking! Isn't that great? I'm hoping Sissy will get in touch and be able to join us.
I'm off now until after the first week of December and very much looking forward to the time off. I hope to get some things done. And the cats seem to be glad I'm home. I've been getting lots of cuddles from them!
(((Dee))) I hope you're feeling better. Are you able to get out and get some sunshine on your face? I hope I can make it out tomorrow, I think the weather is supposed to be cleared up after the rain over the weekend.
We had a power outage in the middle of the night last night for well over an hour. I don't know why, I did hear the sirens so I'm figuring it was maybe a car accident? Being the good Girl Scout I am, I had a flashlight on the night stand and one in the kitchen too.
That's all my news. I hope everyone stays cozy! 'Cept Dee, who's just always cool.
Much love to all!
Lenina
It's so good to see all of you and nice to see some new residents as well! Welcome to you all!
(((Jay))) I know I'm late but please know you're in my thoughts. When I was in therapy, there was a point I thought it was making me worse and wanted to quit. Actually, getting all the feelings and thoughts out was part of the healing process. So, as hard as it was at the time, the better it was for me and my mental health later. I think going inpatient is going to be good for you. I'm sending my best thoughts to you and Kirby as always.
(((med))) I don't recall if I mentioned this to you before but you might want to ask your doctor about a beta blocker for the panic. I take atenolol and it makes such a huge difference for me. I feel calm, I rarely get a full-blown panic attack since I've been on it. I take a very small dose daily. I have no other side effects from it, no drowsiness, no muddled thinking or anything. So, do ask your doctor to look into it for you.
(((Amy))) Thanks for passing on my message. I'm finally awake and feeling more rested. I'm so glad to be home! However, our car died and Hubs had to get a new battery for it. I am worried there's more trouble ahead with the car.
We are going to a restaurant for Turkey Lurky day. The deal is, they pack up some left overs so you can go home with stuff for sandwiches and midnight snacking! Isn't that great? I'm hoping Sissy will get in touch and be able to join us.
I'm off now until after the first week of December and very much looking forward to the time off. I hope to get some things done. And the cats seem to be glad I'm home. I've been getting lots of cuddles from them!
(((Dee))) I hope you're feeling better. Are you able to get out and get some sunshine on your face? I hope I can make it out tomorrow, I think the weather is supposed to be cleared up after the rain over the weekend.
We had a power outage in the middle of the night last night for well over an hour. I don't know why, I did hear the sirens so I'm figuring it was maybe a car accident? Being the good Girl Scout I am, I had a flashlight on the night stand and one in the kitchen too.
That's all my news. I hope everyone stays cozy! 'Cept Dee, who's just always cool.
Much love to all!
Lenina
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((hugs to everyone))
So it's set, I'm going to tomorrow morning, Sue's gonna drive me and Jake (however utterly confused he may be) is going to take care of Goliath (boy is he gonna be grumpy when I get back). I called Kirby...she did not like the news, and I feel badly about it
but maybe at some point she'll see why...
Anyway, I'm packed and stuff. See you guys in 28 days.
So it's set, I'm going to tomorrow morning, Sue's gonna drive me and Jake (however utterly confused he may be) is going to take care of Goliath (boy is he gonna be grumpy when I get back). I called Kirby...she did not like the news, and I feel badly about it
but maybe at some point she'll see why...Anyway, I'm packed and stuff. See you guys in 28 days.
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