Contentment
Contentment
That's exactly what I'm feeling right now. I know, I know, "good for you, moving on..." This was meant to be a blog entry, but I decided to post it here instead, following the lead set by other SR members, and hoping it'll encourage newcomers.
In the past, whenever somebody asked me how I was feeling, I automatically answered "okay". Not good, not bad, and a lie.
I've been sober for a few months now... Sometimes I wonder what made this attempt stick for so long. Maybe I gradually learned stuff from my past efforts. Maybe there was some sort of divine intervention that lifted both my desire to drink and the obsession to get hammered. Also, I literally was sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time. I know for a fact that the encouragement, love and support you all offered to me was critical - my life changed when I joined SR.
So I have no pearls of wisdom to share. Yes, I did commit myself to sobriety. And yes, at times I struggle a bit. For the most part, though, so far the process has been relatively effortless - or maybe the benefits are so huge that they eclipse and far outweigh those struggles. It feels like I gave up nothing . Really, I don't feel like I sacrificed anything at all. I am actually enjoying myself.
I dislike this emoticon: Because, YES, I did do it - I mean drinking. But I don't do it anymore, and that's where I found freedom. Funnily enough, the door to the cell was wide open all along.
There are so many challenges in my life nowadays... But that's fine. In fact, that's a good thing at this point. My background feeling right now is one of contentment - not ecstatic happiness, nor despair either. I feel "okay", and very grateful. Really feeling okay is a blessing, and more than enough for now. I could probably ask for more but, really, I don't want to
In the past, whenever somebody asked me how I was feeling, I automatically answered "okay". Not good, not bad, and a lie.
I've been sober for a few months now... Sometimes I wonder what made this attempt stick for so long. Maybe I gradually learned stuff from my past efforts. Maybe there was some sort of divine intervention that lifted both my desire to drink and the obsession to get hammered. Also, I literally was sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time. I know for a fact that the encouragement, love and support you all offered to me was critical - my life changed when I joined SR.
So I have no pearls of wisdom to share. Yes, I did commit myself to sobriety. And yes, at times I struggle a bit. For the most part, though, so far the process has been relatively effortless - or maybe the benefits are so huge that they eclipse and far outweigh those struggles. It feels like I gave up nothing . Really, I don't feel like I sacrificed anything at all. I am actually enjoying myself.
I dislike this emoticon: Because, YES, I did do it - I mean drinking. But I don't do it anymore, and that's where I found freedom. Funnily enough, the door to the cell was wide open all along.
There are so many challenges in my life nowadays... But that's fine. In fact, that's a good thing at this point. My background feeling right now is one of contentment - not ecstatic happiness, nor despair either. I feel "okay", and very grateful. Really feeling okay is a blessing, and more than enough for now. I could probably ask for more but, really, I don't want to
Matt: God Bless your Honesty, it was said to me in the Rooms that Recovery-
stars when you get Honest with your self, and you Buddy just Have done that.
one of the qualities I admire about you from day one with old do
respect is been your realness,and your sense of Humor, of course
Keep Up the Good work..............
stars when you get Honest with your self, and you Buddy just Have done that.
one of the qualities I admire about you from day one with old do
respect is been your realness,and your sense of Humor, of course
Keep Up the Good work..............
Great post Matt and thank you for putting it here. I also rarely read the blogs and I think its important for newcomers to read about the contentment that you have achieved after the struggle with alcoholism is met. I think once you do the surrender and you find a plan, as you did, things begin to fall in to place. Again, great job and good idea to post about it Matt. :ghug3
My background feeling right now is one of contentment - not ecstatic happiness, nor despair either. I feel "okay", and very grateful. Really feeling okay is a blessing
keep up the good life
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