I can give a brief outline of how my life got out of control. I hadn’t changed or showered in a few days and I felt like all my humanity had been suddenly sucked out of me. I abruptly realized what had happened as I rolled over and had no idea who was lying next to me. Once again I relapsed and spent close to two thousand dollars on cocaine, for what reason I’m not sure. In the past 13 rehabs they told me I had a disease but my mind didn’t want to believe this. I could control this malady they called addiction, I could save myself, I believed I was all powerful and all knowing. I was an omnipotent being that didn’t need the help of anyone.
Well on this day, something was different. I was beat up, jobless, penniless, and I had just called my mother for help and she said she wanted nothing to do with me. This was her way of helping me to realize I needed help desperately. My heart sunk and I contemplated suicide once again. At this point I had two options available to me. Surrender to this disease like I was being suggested by the treatment professionals and begin Recovery or end my life. Fortunately I chose Recovery and began my path toward growth and a quality of life that I could never imagine.
Early Recovery was difficult, however I was determined to stay sober a day at a time and make something of my life. With the help of Addiction professionals who were genuine, caring, empathetic, and real I was able to make progress on a daily basis. I trusted them and this is what made Recovery possible. I didn’t know what I wanted to do but I did know that I wanted to stay sober and those around me helped in every possible way they could.
Throughout the growth process of Recovery I decided and was urged by my higher power to enter the field of addictions and to guide others to the life that I was given through the miraculous process of recovery. I ended up going back to school and accomplishing great feats that I could never imagine. I graduated with my undergraduate degree and pursued my master’s degree in clinical psychology. During these years I continued to work in the field of addictions and was mentored by incredible individuals in this field. I was taught to work with passion and care and to advocate for clients no matter what.
I have grown since the day I stepped in recovery. I have been blessed with a gift to be a therapist that cares about one and only one thing, helping clients improve their lives a day at a time. This thing many of us call work is my life. Therapy and helping others enjoy a better quality of living is my life and I continue to be blessed on a daily basis with clients who want the help to get better. Little do they know, that they help me more than I could ever help them. They give me strength to keep going on a daily basis and they share with me there personal lives and world. That is truly a gift.
I’ve come from the depths of insanity , sleeping on the street to working with individuals much like myself who want to live a better life. The best part of it is my new position that I recently accepted is in the